The railway tracks run behind my house. Some people do not like this, but I find them very relaxing. I found some wisteria growing behind my house too. I also realize that walking on the tracks was not very safe, but the tracks are a rather safe and clear vision of oncoming trains.
The oldest system of transportation. To think people used to travel the world on a train. Private cars for the wealthy were common. It must have been very romantic. Very Murder on the Orient Express!
It was a boring day, so I decided to go on a little walk with my camera. I never uploaded the photos until recently. I have had lots of things on my mind. I have had my hands full. I have also been through a lot these past few years.
Unlike my daughter, Stars Books & Teas, I am a total slacker! She keeps up with writing almost every day! I wait until I get to thinking about it! All everyone wants to talk about is the economy and how terrible things are. Things go bad and get better. it is nothing new. Our country has survived many things. We will survive this.
I think this came from a train. I am not sure. It was too far away from the road to be from a car. If you are wondering what the photos have in common with the post, probably nothing. It is my train of thought! I just like taking a walk and taking photos of everything.
I have been online researching mental health issues. It takes time to recover from Gaslighting. Being in the situation, it is hard to see that something is going wrong. Even when someone close to you points it out, the abuse is not seen. I thought I was lucky to be in the relationship. His children treated me like crap, but I was supposed to accept that. I never did anything right, and I was supposed to accept that too.
I tried and tried to make everyone happy, but it was never good enough. One of his children actually threw away everything I had ever bought him like it was trashy and cheap! Thousands of dollars of gifts were thrown away and I was not supposed to be upset about it. If he did not want them because they came from me, he could have donated them to Goodwill!
His daughter-in-law made fun of me all of the time and I was told I misunderstood what she was saying. I was supposed to be thrilled whenever she snubbed me. She acted like she was so superior because she went to college. She acted like she was better than everyone. His family also treated my daughter like she was trash. It was always uncomfortable when the entire family was together.
I never said anything to anyone. My daughter saw it all. There are times when I really miss him, but I do not miss the situation that I was in. Years and years of resentment have built up inside me. I feel like I cannot move on until I face what happened to me.
I have been sitting on this post for a while. I was not sure I was ready to expose myself to the world, but I have gotten stronger, even from when I first began writing this. I am no longer afraid of hurting anyone’s feelings. It is not like they were ever afraid to hurt my feelings. I am getting better every day. I have great things going on now. I will try to write more, my feelings were also hurt that I do not have a big following and it was rudely pointed out a few months ago.